joshuawong

2011-01-01T00:09:00.001-08:00

well its been some time. 4 mths since is last blogged. BMT is ending. 4 mths of hell but i made some really great friends and forged great bonds. i hate the army and i still do. but it taught me many things. i appreciate many things better.

In the most queer and nonetheless curious manner, i learnt to forgive more easily and control my temper. interesting that i dont recognize 'me' anymore. At the very least, the change was a positive one.

life's one heck of a long journey. you make friends along the way that blow you to the far reaches of the heavens and some that relentlessly crush you the the depths of hell. i made good friends.wonderful ones in 4 mths in fact. they pulled me up when my sanity hits rock bottom. Especially during those arduous route marches when i actually concluded dying was in fact,quite the appealing option. it there that they gave me the encouragement and support i so needed.

And what a its a fruitful and fulfilling 4 mths its been indeed. i lost many things though. some old friends i quarrelled with. we kinda drifted since no reconciliation was made to alleviate the friction btw us. Yet i am just as guilty of that sin since I myself do not care.Because to me,i'm never in the wrong if i don't say sorry to you in 3 days.hahaha. If i fail to convince myself i am at fault and apologize you you in 3 days, it means my conscience is clear and if i am not at fault,it warrants no apology.

After 4mths when THESE people try to talk to me again acting like nothing's happened it's strange even for me,let alone them. i'm no longer angry. no one stays angry forever. that would be too sad in the context of my religion. or at least to me.
But you see a vase once broken cant be mended back to the same way it was before. the feeling of guilt and unsettling awkwardness is ever present.

4 mths ago i said i'd miss all outings. i did....i missed one yesterday. we can just talk over the monitor screen. its something i decided. less social interaction,less conflicts and a greater peace of heart for me. i can always change the friends i have but i cannot change the way i feel if i were to quarrel with the people i once called friends. my piano,ps3 and..well the girl whom i'm still chasing after, demands my attention. just a little bit more you know...hahahaha. maybe i'll blog in another 4 mths. till then world.

2010-08-20T08:39:00.000-07:00

Went to yamaha this morning and the rain was rather heavy. you know what really struck the chord within me. while i was complaining about my dad asking me to pay the car petrol fees when i got my license i saw this bunch of indian workers. Its was like so cramped and they were using card boards ans umbreallas with holes to cover themselves. It struck me bad see that poignant disparity between me and them. and their living conditions are like really crappy and they're underpaid.

But the scene of 20+ worker crammed into a small truck while all they had was to hold on to one another,sharing a piece of cardboard and broken umbrella,its a sight,something to remind me by that all the more i should treasure what i have. And while i had a great meal i came out of tm onyl to see people without hands or legs and that blind guy trying to eek out a living with that few cents in his container and a lady and granny selling tissue paper. i wanna help but i dont have enough money to help them all so i just randomly divided $10 for all of them.

My point being: Why can everyone do their part to help these people out. If everyone who walked by gave them just 50 cents i'm pretty sure they wont have to suffer so much. right?haha

anyway PAP shld kick their own balls. 387 million give it to these people la. dumbshit. YOG wasnt even reported in other countries please.haha

2010-08-12T09:40:00.000-07:00

i just lost ALL hope of goign to japan no thanks to the fact i miscalculated BMT to be 3 mths instead of 4. Oh well. planning a free and easy trip with some frens but i think its hard coz everyones bitching about the $. haha. so worse comes to worse i'll pack my damn luggage and go there myself.maybe with my sister.hahaha. you know what makes life WORTH living. its to experience the beauty of this world and burn its inexplicably wonderful sights into your corneas. oh yea. I'm gonna travel the world. So studying hard in uni,get a good job that lets me travel. well jobs that require you to travel are really highly paid. good pay +travelling the world= A life worth living and a death with no regrets. And thats joshua's equation for you. ok, i gotta take a crap.lol.

2010-08-07T22:58:00.001-07:00

I feel like i'm in love. I left my church for a long time and when i returned i realized all my friends are like...changed.haha. and i saw this childhood friend whom i played with and had a crush on in church abck in my pri sch days,lol.

She was playing the Grand piano at church today fro the service. I swear i fell in love with her and kept stealing glances as she played the piano.HAHAHA. i got a thing for girls who play the piano well. Like well luh.not play like shit half cooked ones ok. i mean the really good ones.better than me. my sick fetish.lol...Not to mention she really beautiful. i think like 1/4 chinese,1/4 jap and 1/2 angmoh. younger than me by 3 years.

Maybe i'll see her in university coz when i go in the girls will all be 3 yrs younger than me.haha. anyway she was really sweet luh. Dont think she remmebers me and i dont wanna tell her who i am either although she did mention i look familiar.cant go like..."OH..we were really close when we're kids." lame huh.... after all thats my church of 15 years before i went mia for 5 yrs.

But what made my day was while i played the piano,my fren played the drum and she palyed the violin. damn it she plays the violin too???lol. There are really many nice christian songs i gotta say. Really wish the church would lemme play the piano for sunday service but after leaving so long i need to integrate myself back in and find an opportunity or fro someone to allow me to try. or present me the opportunity. i cant go like "hey i think i damn good so let me play for chruch serivce"....anyway christian songs are easy lo. Sure ok chop 100% NP one la.gimme a chance pls?...lol. anyway

So i am officially back to church. and its not coz of my pretty childhood fren.lol.

2010-08-01T23:43:00.000-07:00

here something my economic teacher shared with us. And form a book i read.lol.

Simple explanations for complex Economics...lol

SOCIALISM You have 2 cows. You give one to your neighbour.
COMMUNISM You have 2 cows. The State takes both and gives you some milk.
NAZISM You have 2 cows. The State takes both and shoots you dead.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION You have two cows. You sell one, and force the other to produce the milk of four cows. Later, you hire a consultant to analyse why the cow has dropped dead.

A FRENCH CORPORATION You have two cows. You go on strike, organise a riot, and block the roads, because you want three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION You have two cows. You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk. You then create a clever cow cartoon image called 'Cowkimon' and market it worldwide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION You have two cows. You re-engineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and milk themselves.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION You have two cows, but you don't know where they are. You decide to have lunch.

A RUSSIAN CORPORATION You have two cows. You count them and learn you have five cows. You count them again and learn you have 42 cows. You count them again and learn you have 2 cows. You stop counting cows and open another bottle of vodka.

A SWISS CORPORATION You have 5000 cows. None of them belong to you. You charge the owners for storing them. (swiss banks suxs)

A CHINESE CORPORATION You have two cows. You have 300 people milking them. You claim that you have full employment, and and the healthiest milk powder. You arrest the newsman who reported the Real situation.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION You have two cows. You worship them.

AN IRAQI CORPORATION Everyone thinks you have lots of cows. You tell them that you have none. No-one believes you, so they bomb the crap out of you and invade your country. You still have no cows, but at least now you are part of Democracy....

AUSTRALIAN CORPORATION You have two cows. Business seems pretty good. You close the office and go for a few beers to celebrate.

A TALIBAN CORPORATION: You have all the cows in Afghanistan, which are two. You don’t milk them because you cannot touch any creature’s private parts. Then you kill them and claim a US bomb blew them up while they were in the hospital.

HONG KONG CAPITALIST: You have two cows, you kill the two cows because the feng shui is bad.

A SPANISH CORPORATIONYou have 20.000 cows 200 of them hard work while the remaining complain and bitch.Then another 19.800 cows are required(?) from cheaper farms.Finally all 20.000 cows get CCC rating, but we dont care cuz we are worldCup Champions.

A MALAYSIAN CORPORATION You have two cows.
You signed a 40-year contract to supply milk at RM0.06 per litre. Then midway through, you raised the price to RM0.60 or you cut the supply.When the buyer agrees to the new price, you change your mind again and now want RM1.20. The buyer decided you can keep the milk and they go look for milk that comes from recycled cows or the cow urine instead, Your two cows retire together with the Prime Minister.

SINGAPORE: You have 2 cows. Cow Peh Cow Bu. The government fines you for keeping two unlicensed animals in an apartment.

2010-07-31T08:30:00.001-07:00

Spent half the day at TM with guo yan and gx. kena forced to eat Popeye. Really gotta run to burn off my excess fats and train the muscles out but ever since i bumped into that FAT BASTARD (who stared at me )and tasted his man boobs sweat at the bend i kinda got a bit sick.

And i'm totally stressed out over my piano mock exams and not to mention i have to study my BMT too. and i'm the midst of trying to see if i can transfer to NUS cos it nearer to home.And i have to clear it all before 13 sep when i enlist. One last thing.

Lastly a blogs abt updating events abt your life right. So i haven talked abt THAT. But i'm too lazy to write it down. So this i what i have to say to some friends of mine.

If we click you're like gold to me. But once we dont get along you're no better than the toilet paper i use to wipe my asshole after i shit. So what happens when an unstoppable force hits an immovable object? conflict.life is so sweet.***

2010-07-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

Cock Siht since when did BMT become 4 months. So thou hast to bid farewell to my trip to tokyo. And my parents almost booked my tickets la. whatever....screw you mindef.

And 2 yrs ns is long. hope to further my music and then study some advanced math so i wont suffer so much and most importantly,get my driving license. My dads says he might consider getting me cheap car...or so he says. probably dosent want me to snatch cars with him. oh well, hope the elections will lower the COE for cars otherwise they can forget me voting for them.

2010-07-20T09:15:00.000-07:00

Well not doing much recently other than waiting for my enlistment. hai..too bad my white fren enlsit 1 day later than me. thought i would have some company.
My lifes damn standard. revise maths to prepare for the math aptitude test at NUS. running 2.4 km everyday and a whole load of rubbish workouts like pullups and pumpings and then practice my piano for 2-3 hrs.
And I'm glad my ex piano teacher wants to teach me again. She's a world class performer and i have nth but admiration for her. So here i am trying very hard to learn mozarts and tchaikovsky pieces which are like diploma level and i'm what...grade 7?

no choice man.gotta get into the piano ensemble at NTU so i can apply for scholarship.CCA is compulsory to qualify.thye pay 30K for my school fees plus i get 5k every sem for daily expenses.wahahah... i got it all planned out. I'm gonna do my masters and PHD at the famed massachusetts institute of technology or MIT. yea...dr walter bishop no 2. but as we all know planning too much is pointless. you nvr know when you gonna DIE. But no harm dreamin coz i knwo none of the above is goign to come true .so yea. just bloggin fer fun.

The new song I jsut found from ffx2. Its a very easy song to play. learnt it in 4 hours. and very nice too. =)

2010-03-31T06:22:00.000-07:00

life is too short.friends and family are my only joy anyway.Anyway my friends all received their admission letter from NUS man...why is it only conditional admission letter.haha.

2010-03-27T09:08:00.000-07:00

lol.for those of you who have met him.....

and a really nice FF 13 song .....

nth much. realllly bored so i just blog. working really sucks. and working at tampines mall sucks even more la.so many farking customers who only know how to scold you. anyway NUS and NTU resutls are gonna come out soon. i'm confident i'll be accepted but still...hahaha.

2010-03-22T08:11:00.000-07:00

i know. i dont wanna blog la.But recently my sadness is like overwhelming....so i gotta spit it out. i really wonder why. i thought that when i do well enough to enter NUS, that i proved everyone wrong and that i am smart.And now that my results are more than enough to enter NUS, i honestly thought i would have been happier coz that was my goal since sec 2. but now why is it i feel i am still missing something. hahaha. actually i think know what that is. And that was all i ever wanted. i think friends adn family play a large role in maintaining my sanity. Whats the point in working so hard if i cant be happy. i really did think i would be happy if my dream came true. but i am still sad. i really wonder why...hai.

2010-03-11T08:42:00.000-08:00

i found a job. but its hard to take leave. either way whern i get my pay,i'm settign 50 dollars aside to help those tissue aunties and uncles who are crippled. why can people jsut walk past them after having a nice meal at long johns or macdonalds, and yet not feel a thing fro these people. honestly if i dont buy the tissues from them when i see them, i cant slp at night. czo i keep thinking that my bed is so comfortable but they are probably still outside selling tissue papers. weird right. i know. even my dad and sis thinks i am crazy.they say got 1000s of these people you help until you die also cannot finish helping. but to pay 2 dollars to slp well at night is worth it no?haahhaha. just writing this.coz i just opened my bag side pocket and it has like over 13 packets of tissue paper crammed in.lol.

anyway tomorrow my resutls will be out at 2pm. soooooo anxious. i wanna dream of a gpa of 4 but that seems too lame.watever.night.

2010-03-09T22:06:00.001-08:00

i'm so jealous of girls. they dont need to serve NS, get treated well no matter where they go...thats provided you dont look like susan boyle. well anyway, the world treats women better. resutls will be out tomorrow. based on that i will know if i'll receive a rejection or acceptance letter.

but i still feeel sucky. why is it that all 3 jobs rejected me huh? i got good resultsfro Os and GPA, won awards on poly and my poly resume looks so colouful. and yet those people dint choose me. wtf is worng with them. i only ask fro soem temporary student like job also must be so strict meh. shit la.dammit. bias shitheads. maybe i look liek a kid or something so they think i only know how to study and not work.hai.

2010-03-02T22:07:00.000-08:00

since that retarded guy zit faced fat bastard dint wanna employ me i'm rotting at home waiting for recruit express to find me a job. i really envy girls because in this world, girls always get the better end of the stick. admin job companies want girls.telemarketing also want girls. what a sexist bunch of assholes really. what happened to those times when guy were superior huh??.
this suxs.no job no $=NO PS3. and that koh gao sai is on his way to buy one ps3 soon.lol. not to mention if i do badly for my exams and screw up my chances of entering NUS. Anyone knows the exact date the poly results are released?hahaa.

anyway liar game season 2 is out.HAHAHAHA. its the best Japanese drama i have ever watched. and erika toda is the hot Siht man.haahha.

2010-02-21T21:07:00.001-08:00

i fked up my whole math test. dint draw the box statistical plot.10 marks gone. not like i dont know how to draw. its more like i DINT F***ING SEE THE INSTRUCTIONS LA. CANT THE TEACHER JUST BOLD THE TEXT???

and Poisson distribution and binomailto normal dist.20 marks. flunked. those who know poisson, it a rare event that must have P<1percent.stupid teacher tricked me put it as 0.67 PERCENT. i read it as without the percentage Sign 0.67 which when you convert ,would equate to 67 percent in probabilistic terms. so i was stuck since i cant use Poisson as it is greater than 1 percent.

permutation combination?screewwed. i did it as without repetition and its linked tp part a b c d bla bla. 10 marks gone.

100-10-10-20=60
add careless mistakes since there was so little time to finish the paper 60-10=50 marks. fk it. thats a GPA of 1. =.=. can god please bless me...hai.i wanna go uni one lei. liddat sure no chance already laaaa...

2010-02-19T20:07:00.000-08:00

i pray i break the 3.7 barrier. and then i can secure a place in NUS hopefully. now that studies are out of my way ,no O levels,no Gpa to worry about and NUS accepts me, maybe then i'll ask her out or something. and if i get rejected which i probably think that will be the case, i'll just get back to solving math equations la. HAHAHAHA.

2010-02-17T08:28:00.000-08:00

NUS application is driving me crazy. now i'm paying the price for my cocked up stamped eyes who filled in all the wrong info. and the Nus guy actually scolded me over the phone like.....=.=. damn it. and i'm pissed coz so many stupid cheena and malaysians are applying to local unis. i'm not talking about PRs who have stayed fro a long time but fucking malaysians who study without even serving NS and then run away after servign a pathetic 3 year bond. WTF. screw malaysian and cheenas. come on man. let the Singaporeans in even if the have a GPA of 1 they still deserve to go in more then those shiity douche bag foreigners. suck it up asses.

2010-02-10T06:16:00.000-08:00

my projects are finally cleared!.no to mention my all teachers were pleased. praying that many more As would come along. anyway i'm about to pull out all my hair after spending 4 hrs to find the piano score sheets of a very nice song. its titled diamonds in my heart. i'd choke out 150 bucks for anyone who can give it to me. although i doubt if i cant find it you guys probably cant. i tried to play by ear but the piano arragments for this song is just weeeirrdd. like my mind cannot process the sequence,order and the correct notes. hai. no more songs to learn no mroe sogns to play. and my sis is palyign that irriatating luoz zhi xiang song from his show its just horrible. totally anti luo zhi xiang man. oh yea. anti leeminho and robert pattinson. all 3 are dumbasses. HHAHAHA. ALL GUYS ON EARTH SURE SUPPORT ME. I dont care bout what you girls think.

2010-02-09T08:41:00.001-08:00

i cant believe i am praising my dad for the first time.lol. he actually used hardcore programming skills to fight with that stupid virus and won. not to mention that the virus destroys my laptop data every 3 mins and jams the computer. so it means he only had 3 min to destroy it each time he restarts the computer.lol. kudos. dont know his computer programming was that good.hahahah. luckily i only lost my songs and photos coz he tried to fight it twice. projects files are intact. thank god man. anyway life isnt good recently. studies nvr fail to make me miserable la.

2010-02-05T09:45:00.000-08:00

my fren says he's emo over his test results and dont feel like studying. I told him you can afford to feel emo until the exams are over. coz feeling emo over lousy results totally detroys your mood to study and you'll flung. hahha. i'm really trying not tothink abt the projects and tests i have flung. if not i think i'll kill mysel out of despair. i really afraid i cant make it into Uni. can imagine wat my relatives would say..you know something like...."see la.told you jc easier to go in blabla." no fking way man. i need to get in uni even if my eye bags explode from the late night mugging. i wanna mug mug mug.be a fkin mugger if thats what it takes. who cares. i'm ugly enough.wont get any worse.LOL.

on the other hand i'm thinking of PS3 as my motivation.gonna get one as soon as ff13 and ff12 versus comes out. AND Leona lewis is singing the theme song for FF13. hehehe. she sings great songs. greater now that shes singing for FF13. yea biased.watever. but honestly FF10 still look better.

2010-02-01T09:01:00.000-08:00

final fantays 13 and final fantasy 13 fabula nova crystallis is out.HAHAHAHA. damn i dont care. i am goign to use my NS money to get a PS3. anyway i know this is late but my long time Burden friend of 9 year plus mr koh gao sai came back frm thailand recently. lol. i know i missed lots of outings but i swear i'll make it up after this period. and i have been losing my temper easily .....again. stress la. anyway i got a lot of burden good friends . sec sch, poly etc. all burden me only.

anyway NTU and NUS applications are open. honestly at this point i cant be bothered la. go in or not its God's will. even if i do go in its through the support or friends teachers ad parents la. but i made my 5 choices already. all that left is to collect my O level english cert and sitck the A grade to them. HHAHA. than that would settle the 20% uni admission scores for me.

electrical engineering, , computer engineering, mathematics and business administration,bioengineering

honestly my mum and dad wanted me to put bioengineering as 1st choice. why? coz after you graduate 4 years you can study another 5 years to become a GP Doctor. very yaya right. but who cares. i hate blood. unless i can be a gynecologist.Lol. thats crazy la. study 9 yrs. i would be fked by then. i hope bth unis accept me.

2010-01-29T07:29:00.000-08:00

so i faield my napfa test with 4As and 1B and 1E. dammit. it like 20-30 secs away from the D grade and i wont have to show my love for singpore by dedicating 2 mthss of my life. but well...a guy like me loves singapore too much so i intentinally failed my 2.4 run.HEEEEHHAAAAAA.Wtf.lol. anyway i guess excercisng makes my life happier due to the endorphins. all that lousy test results coupled with overwhelming stress. argh...and yaaaa...i know snsd has a new mv but i'm kinda sick of them la. i'm a guy who never had much interests in this sort of things anyway.besides all the cutesy actiing.....is nauseating so to speak. the only thing i had never lost interest in is anime/manga, math and music. why listen to other poeple's music when i can listen to my own luh.lol. gotta slp. my bodys breaking down from all the 50 situps. oh gawd.

2010-01-27T05:34:00.000-08:00

tired and stressed.fed up. so i end up reading the bible. maybe this is god's way of bringing me back to him. i jsut need a bit more time to reorganize my life. haven been doing well in school lately. and coz i flunked(not flung...so boon soom say.HAHAHA. he dosent believe i testing hm la.hai.) so many quizzes. my mood swings are getting more erratic. like a really lifeless guy. studying makes my life miserable. if only i could.....nvm la. haha.

2010-01-26T10:39:00.000-08:00

somewhere along the way people make all the wrong choices. they pick up smoking.(thought i can never understand why) or they get tatoos, drop out of school and sometimes choose to be someone they are not. it dosent matter of course if they change but most dont. i guess a person has to stand for something, or they will fall for anything. you know like the concept of metamorphosis? like when everything else and everyone changes will you?lol.

2010-01-25T07:39:00.000-08:00

very very very heartbroken over my math test. i have cock eye with stamps pasted on them la. this is my MOST retarded careless mistake and really it costs me a huge blow on my marks.dammit.

2010-01-20T09:17:00.000-08:00

i've come to accept the face that i may get a gpa of 3.68 instead of my lovely 3.7++. dont say its good already. if you jsut take a look at the number of faggots i nmy course with 3.9+....its really disheartening. 1st Febuaray is the application date for NUS and NTU. cant wait to apply and pray i get in.hahahaa.

2010-01-19T05:09:00.000-08:00

i'm really worried i'll get a B+ for my major project. And here i thought i would get an A grade since i received the commendation award. its gonna be a painful blow to my already pathetic Gpa. Anyway NTU is asking me toapply to the school of physical and mathmatical sciences. i really wanna do mathematics in university but my parents apprently are strongly against it. guess i'll do engineering in the end.hai.....

2010-01-18T02:35:00.001-08:00

The last judgement takes place everyday.

2010-01-17T03:25:00.000-08:00

The world's a comedy to those that think; a tragedy to those that feel.

2010-01-15T08:52:00.000-08:00

sometimes i really wonder why things happen the way they do. i'd like to believe that god has something planned out for me. lets forget that fact that i'm short,look bad,crappy results and the fact that i'll probably nvr gonna get a girlfriend(not that i want one right now but....you knwo la). and jsut when things were looking up slightly when i got such a prestigous award for my FYP,got a distinction for my english o level, topping my cohort in a math-like subject...i gotta be hit with a friggin heart disease. Some people tell me midef machines are old and lousy already but its still sad. liek what if i do get in NUS and then they tell me i'm gonna die.lol. in fact i am so disturbed right now i have not touched my books for the whole week and i am 2 damn chapters away from lecture pace.

So in moments liek these i think i'll leave my fate to god. at least if i do die of a heart disease its better than dying of cancer. least i dont have to go through hell and more importantly i get to DIE WITH MY HAIR ON.

well its hard to believe this world was made and in learning maths and physics the poisson equation will say that the formation of life through the big bang is an even rarer than rare.hahahahhahaha. so i believe that god surely exist and life is not made by chance but rather by an architect who intentionally made us. i mean look at black holes and supernovas. and the physics behind them. you cant say it occured by chance right. and i refuse to believe i evolved from some lowly ape.night guys.

2010-01-13T06:20:00.001-08:00

i'm in deep shit. as a bioengineering student i know how to read ECG waves and my waves are BAAADDDD. but i really think their ECG machine cock up la. coz the dragon boater beside me got diagnosed with the same disease. i dont mind being PES D but what i want to knwo is the extent of its serverity. sian la...

2010-01-12T04:05:00.000-08:00

Those who are wondering my sisters O level results no need ask la. all ican say is has 7 distinctions and if you include her chinese its 8 distinctions. sad la...i know. why the brother so stupid right? haha.

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly...

i happened to find the very tattered piano score sheet of this song and realized the song was really nice when i played it. lol. good song to listen to.haha.

2010-01-11T02:44:00.001-08:00

i wanted to write this for a friggin long time. you see, this is dedicated to all you muddasuckers out there who laughed at my english during my O levels.
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I GOT AN A GRADE For MY ENGLISH!!!!!. HAHAHAHAH.
SUCKITUP YOU DOUCHEBAGS.

With my 20% O level secured all thats left is my 80% poly results.
my English is definitely A1 caliber.something screwed up la. say wat you want liek that idiot took it a 2nd time blabla. who cares. i jsut wanna prove i can get A. And i wanna improve my chances of getting in NUS. Never thought i'd be so happy spending 150 dollars in my life.

2010-01-09T03:00:00.001-08:00

finally the 3 days of hell had came to pass. standing 10 hrs a day talking to people ranging from ministers,to the CEO of Tp,to directors and a whole lot of big shots as well as lecturers, parents and medical doctors about my project is crappy nerve wrecking and tiring work. its not like i wanna do it but i'm forced to so i keep praying no one will visit my project booth.thanks god there are only a few irritating people like that indian doctor who asked a whole load of questions about my project until i kinda got stuck and on of the questions. save the cute secondary school girls and many eye candy, the 3 days were....wtf. and there seemed to be some cock up during the prize giving ceremony where merit and commendation awards were mixed up.lol.heard TP principal/CEO mr Boo whom i heard is a total snob and stuck up shit was really pissed. anyway my legs are broken and covered with 4 blisters.why cant they even give us a damn chair when we cant even leave the project booth for a second. i had better get an A grade for this crap.if not........i'll shoot mr boo and my supervisor dead. Peace out suckers.lol

2009-12-31T09:02:00.000-08:00

well i jsut came back frm u-shi-tay's hse.lol. mini gathering. gotta thank his mum for preparing all the food and his maid and sister seemed to really help out. feel kinda bad luh. haha. maybe nxt gathering at my hse.lol. and i'll make it FOC....or heavily subsidized???haha. otherwise everyone will say i'm 4e4's greatest miser.lol. even instant mee also dowan give. actually its not. its more like i don't want my mum to trouble herself for my friends coz she would insist on cooking a feast for them. so i say if they want anything help themselves.cook themselves. apparently i have been portrayed as selfish and reluctant to give people food. -.=.

well a few of us came back early from tay hse la. was kinda shagged coz i had a pile of mathematics and economics projects wating for me to do. anyway SOME PEOPLE from honkong one ar....or in fact a few. TELL THEM TAY MUM AT HOME ALREADY. DONT JOKE ABOUT ME LIKING HIS SISTER. not at home still nvm sia. i know his mum has a bad impression of me luh.coz of that sec 4 incident.lol.They still sabo me. =.=. Lol. than some of them more zai la .say in front of her.hahahahah. nvm. ok lets get this clear. i only like gr*** *** la. er tay, both your sisters are cute and all and your mums a really nice person but i really got no designs on her ok. i was just JOKING.and i don't go for girls smarter than me. too malu and sia suay already. hahaha.

not that i'm stupid k. i have a string of A's and a few Z;s fro my O's and polytechnic subjects.

2009-12-30T06:01:00.000-08:00

after all that mugging i only got 76/100 fro my economics mid term examinations. not to mention i got scolded by my econs tutor really badly when it my bunch of Econs class girl-friends talking so loudly. wtf than why i get scolded when i was the queitest copying my notes.

but guess what. though i dint get an A i'm still the highest in my class.HAHAAH.

2009-12-28T10:35:00.000-08:00

hello singnet mio i jsut wanna say you fukcing suck donkey balls luh. i cant even read my manga in peace or talk for more than 5 mins on my home phone.thanks to your farking useless internet connection and lousy mio tv. and i cant complain because my father is a senior manager there and he scared get into trouble. so singnet damn u and pls suck my dongs. even onemanga.com is saying that you suxs.thanks asshole. i swear i'll switch to starhub after my contract wiht you is over. diu lei.

2009-12-27T05:32:00.001-08:00

no wonder they say most people find their girlfriends in university. well at least for those who are in NUS NTU ,SMU coz the campus is probably bigger due to govermental fundings and therefore more pretty girls.yea baby. gotta keep up my GPA for this last semester so i can gain admission. than i would say hello to my stuck up acjc friend coz that dumb ass wanted the same course as me.what a loser. so smart go study in campbridge or yale or havard la. DIE also wont share a room with him. dammit.wahaha.

2009-12-26T08:40:00.000-08:00

had a great chirstmas yesterday with 4e4 guys. too many so lazy to list down the names. had donner at manhattan. damn ,spent big bucks. will be goign to tay's hse to swim tomorrow. i hope tay calls his sister down to swim with us.HAHAHA.nah. JUST kidding.she's smarter than me. one can never get a girl smarter than himself. lol.so i went to church on christmas eve and then had to rush out a stupid report. zl is complaining i give too many excuses...arrggh.lol. i think christmas should revolve around the birth of chirst. well most people take it as some holiday while forgetting its true meaning. i think my new year resolution is to go to church more often. afterall god has helped me in many ways and the reason why i drifted away in sec4 is due to soemthing that happened.hahaha. well...it took my 2 yrs after only to realize i was the one at fault and not god.but its hard to return after so long yea?

anyway WTF man. hirako shinji got pawned by aizen. yea. aizen's my man. i dont care what others say.lol

2009-12-23T22:27:00.000-08:00

its chirstmas eve. gonna go to church soon. i'm lucky to perform with that cute ang-moh girl who plays the violin. can take this chance to tlak to her.lol. well..enjoy your Christmas eve guys....gotta go practice my pieces. i don't wanna screw up man.

maybe not.i think i'll watch anime instead. i'm a sucker for all anime even romance anime. vampire knight and clannad is nice.ahahha.

2009-12-23T03:19:00.000-08:00

its OK to not look good physically. Its OK to not be bright. But your character and what you are inside matters. the problem is i think i suck inside and i look crappy.Ya...call me a dwarf/no girlfriend/no life nerd.whatever man. i'm immune to it.Hahahaha.its not like i dont want to ask god for forgiveness for some things i did whcih are too repulsive to write here anyway. like for the sake of doing well academically i have had to sacrifice my conscience. And if i were to think about it, i jsut fear the weight of my sins would surely crush the life out of me.....

anyway i talked to my mum about studying mathematics in NUS if i do get in instead of engineering. hey.tay also studying math right.haha. well..she said to sponsor my uni fees if i wanted math.lol. oh god.

2009-12-21T07:45:00.000-08:00

that faggot cousin of mine really made it into Harvard university. even amongst the raffelsians thats rare.this is called true genius man.And i thought he was crapping me when he told me jc was easy. guess he really had it easy.haha. its that poignant and deplorable yet subtle and conspicuous disparity that pisses me off...woa.lol. i need redemption. ...yea right.and here i am slacking away instead of studying.

2009-12-20T07:58:00.000-08:00

went out with e4 gang.too lazy to list all the names.haha. anyway bodyguards was a really avg show la.oh well.good to go out since i was feeling lousy over my studies. anyway i really need to know if i can apply leave to go overseas for ns since my parents will be going to japan or paris next christmas. good thing they dint go this year.almost did if not for my heavy schedule. my cousin in japan now told me that there a friggin blizzard outside her hotel. off to clear my truckload of holiday homework.adios amigos.

2009-12-19T07:49:00.000-08:00

what does it take for me to become smarter.i really wonder why i study and study but still so stupid. lousy gpa,lousy o levels,Meridian jc dropout. ya ya.whaaatever.haha.

2009-12-18T07:15:00.000-08:00

i'm kinda emo over my results coz i think i flunked.so i gonna blog about some crap.haha
i think that....some guys are just plain gay. they use words like 'teehee!' and an overuse of "OMG OMG OMG i was so excited!' with tons of "!!!!!!" or they would say something like "i really lublub my darling" or weird phrases like "i would work harder now bah. ganbatte to myself ok?" girls perfectly fine to me. but guys? maybe you need to grow up. At least i know i need to grow up vertically. but those guys obviouslt dont even know they need to grow up.

this is from a guy i know. 20ys old.
omg la!!.Anyway, serving the nation is a MUST!!!.I'm not exactly afraid of the hardship cos it will only make me a better person.. Probably juz a little stress that all pre-enlistees feel!!! :)
so how many guys actually talk like that huh?

and holyshit, this one takes the Cake man.here is something i found in another friends blog.20yrs old.
"i dono why when our love is so deep when we talked online at msn, i felt you understand my feelings.but you want leave me. is so sad to my ear and breaks my heart.i guess it is not our destiny to allow us to be together. you said you cared for me but now it was all lies that tored my soul. :( "

so forget the crappy eng. but this guy can tell his gf understands his feelings jsut by talking online....cool.and thats not just 1 or 2 guys. apparently singapore is filled with such......gays. For a 20yr old, he sure knows a lot about love huh.

2009-12-15T03:30:00.000-08:00

kar long is a dongs lover. dont ask me wat that is. ask him.lol.

2009-12-13T07:43:00.000-08:00

To live in the spirit of Christmas is to live in the spirit of Christ. simply love Christmas. i think most people just take it as some holiday anyway. gotta attend church next week for a chirstmas carol. i can touch my lovely grand piano there again.

Anyway, A malay lady knocked on my door,came and said merry christmas to me. probably coz she saw the cross outside my door. and then she asked for donations to a Muslim orphanage to buy Chirstmas presents. She told me ANY amount was fine. usually they ask for donations in 2-5 dollars and had gifts in return. so when i asked for proof, she said she forgot to bring her identity card.=.= i'm not racist but firstly, Malays don't even celebrate christmas so whats the excuse with christmas presents.just say you want donations la. Secondly, if i were to donate, its not only for Malay orphanages. like how the hell do i know what they use the $ for huh. And lastly, that damn woman was lying to me anyway. kinda obvious la. who the hell forgets their identity card when asking for donations. and her tone was kinda shaky. so i wished her merry christmas and gave her two 5 cents coins. Then i said i donated all my $ to church recently,apologized and closed the door smiling at her. Her face was classic.HAHAHA hey. any amount was fine right?

2009-12-11T07:06:00.000-08:00

so to mark the end of exams 4 of us went to watch storm warriors. you might think with such influential actors and big publicity, that show would be exceptinal no less. turned out it was a draggy,full of shit talking. waste of time watching. JUST LIKE TWILIGHT.YUP. TWILIGHT IS GARBAGE. if any guy watches twilight, he's the loser of the 21st century.unless he watches it with a girl.so invest the money ON the girl.not the movie. so back to storm warriors the battle scenes were pathetic and if there were any it just garbage kung fu.not real kung fu moves. just hack hack hack.i could do that too.and all that slow motion? well it gets slower and slower at each fighting scene you wanna just sleep. it cumulates to the point the camera stopped totally. and whaddafuck i spent 10 bucks. knn i might as well watch slide shows since they wanna choke all the fighting scenes with slow motion. the CGI graphics were like faeces. now i really think Final fantasy rocks coz the CGI is a 1000 times better. and did i mention the blardy show is like some chinese soap opera/wayang.the story line is gd? rubbish. the whole show is about a bone. some bone that looks like the bone my cousin's dog always chews. so maybe the bone was some great weapon or soemthing amazing. but noooo. turned out it was jsut a fucking bone. and that bone broke in the end anyway. =.=. !@#$$%^&*(*&()

anyway.exams are over. the papers was real tricky. i think many people thought it G= +400. well... its -400. but as in all mathematics there is sure to be method mark. no worries guys.

2009-12-07T22:30:00.000-08:00

nnb. lost 10 marks in conditional probability question due to careless mistake. why i so friggin stupid. nvm . give them the marks la. big deal meh. think i want the 10 mark ar huh???. lol.

2009-12-06T09:23:00.000-08:00

i swear after my exams i'm gonna enjoy myself. call all my gang go out.than must pull weilun kk out also.thsoe 2 zai nan nvr see them for too long already.haha.

2009-12-01T09:08:00.000-08:00

attended my cousins wedding dinner. hahaha. i was nervous having to play the in front of so many people. lots of eye candies.lol. and there was this waitress. she's beautiful. nvr seen someone this beautiful since erika. i think mix blood.she even helped me set up the grand piano. well.i wasnt the main pianist la of course.but its the experience that counts.maybe i'll upload the photos to facebook since everyone's cursing my useless FB account. but the waitress photos i took with her is for my viewing pleasure.sry guys.hahaha. the bride was pretty too.

i got another story abt another one of my shitty aunts at the dinner
aunt: you poly final year already ar?wa.so fast.you what course ar?
me:bioengineering.
aunt: huh? aiyo.that one i heard only wash test tube and repair damaged lights.your sis going temasek jc.why you dont want go.
me:oh. coz i think JC is like rotten fish put in a cesspool so i decided to study in TP.

the whole table went quiet after that and my sis gave me thumbs up.no offence jc kids.I dint mean it ok.lol.but i was pissed.ruined my wedding dinner appetite.

2009-11-30T06:54:00.000-08:00

ha...i cant believe i got the highest for the mathematics test. kinda thought i was gonna do badly.many people flunked the test coz of the sheer difficulty. God bless.

2009-11-27T08:21:00.000-08:00

went to popeye with chow and kl in the evening. someone pangseh us half way after eating.still owe me 10 bucks. chow say he wont return.i also think so. gotta invest in pig heads and spray paint.dowan say him la.lol.ran into jiayi and xinling and after they left a nigger came. and then chow was like 'snoopdog is here' really loudly. knn. than he and kl laugh damn loud. if get beaten i pretend dono them. anyway snoopdog really looks like him.HAHA. i think i'm racist and countrysist.shh.

2009-11-24T05:59:00.000-08:00

i was talking to valerie at class today. so i decided to disturb her and ask what she looks for in a guy. her reply was "coz i too stupid already ,so i look for very smart guys" while making a very sad face.lol. i guess guys need to work hard after all. so girls should not snatch uni places with us guys.coz we're breadwinners. i'm a sexist.lol. soooo guoxiang ... work hard if you wanna chase valerie la hor.

i'm so in love with neyo's Be on you.credits to chow.hahaha.

2009-11-23T02:11:00.000-08:00

damn it.i flung the last question of my maths test.10 marks gone. i knew the probability question was gonna kill me. it was too....confusing. sad sia.haiz.

2009-11-22T01:14:00.000-08:00

damn it.conditional probability and bayes rule suxs.still must memorize the stupid formuale.sian sian sian.anyway goood luck to tay and willy taking their As.lol.

2009-11-20T09:02:00.000-08:00

wa lao.my ps2 crashed on me. its dead.all my final fantasy data all gone. well my friend wanted the game data.too bad i guess. final fantasy X is definitely the best of the best. and yuna is so.....i knwo shes not real la.but if someone like her existed in real life i think many heads would turn out at the streets. no matter i'm getting a ps3. ff13!! the part where he fought that pretty girl looks cool.

2009-11-16T09:19:00.000-08:00

weather you're tall thin fat short white black yellow handsome ugly or average,i think its a blessing to be alive.So count your blessings day by day.well i'm (short/not so good looking/not so smart/poor).but i think i have many things to be happy about. just bored coz my proj screwed me up last min.so im taking a break to blog before fighting this pandemonium.

2009-11-15T03:17:00.000-08:00

depression is back.dono why poeple say i have an overwhelming sense of self esteem.to be honest its not high.more like on the border average or slightly above low. so i end up talking to god in my room when i feel sad. used to talk to my cat. but he kinda died on me.least i can see my cat. i cant even see god.maybe i should put the bible in front of me,draw a picture of god and talk to it. on a side note...statistics is killing me. probability,permutations and combinations are a 100times worse than ever.

2009-11-13T09:06:00.000-08:00

camp in tp for 2 days and slept fro an hour.i singapore's 3rd panda liao la.major project suxs

2009-11-11T08:31:00.000-08:00

after all the designing and technology,circuit fabrication,computer programming and coding,pages of mathematical calculation(screw those who say math is pointless) i got soemthing out at last.
project title :Extravascular lung water detection,a novel method of bioimpedace analysis.dont huh me la.its the full title.haha.i know what you are gonna say.its just a stupid dumb blue metal box. come on,come on guys. thats not cool. its the inside tha counts.and besides we made that blue box with very advanced technology and the inside is really complex calculations algorithms codes and complicated circuitry with electrodes configuration ok.so kudos to jian jie me and jason.HAHAHA.

2009-11-09T07:17:00.000-08:00

nothing much recently.i've been staying in TP till 11.30 and sometimes midnight for qute some time due to the stupid shithole Mp.i need the A grade.my mum and dad actually drove out to to mac and then to tp just to buy me dinner when they heard i wont be back till 11.30pm. even when they were about to sleep.my sister left me cookies on my room table when i came home and my little brother brought me some paddle pop ice cream.
i have news.i am able to japan this christmas.just a yes from me and my uncle is willing to sponsor me and my sister to go with them.my sis had said yes so her tickets are already booked.but my projects are weighing me down.if i go,chances are that my gpa would drop coz its a 10 day trip.but then such a opprtunity dosent come twice.and its japan lei.wtf.dream country.and i can see snow again. 1 wk to decide before its too late....caught in a dilemma...

2009-11-06T03:09:00.000-08:00

today was director's honours list at TCC.cant believe i lost to some cheena girl.i mean singaporeans deserve it more lei.cheena students can shit off.cheena dogcrap.i am countrysist.these people come take advantage of singapore only.and make life hard for all singaporeans.take our jc'c.poly,and our universities.fk all china people.not to mention their goddamn irritating tone and attitude otwards us.this is OUR SOIL.my gpa over sem 2.1 and 2.2 was 3.85 still kena displaced.argh shucks.oh..congrats to jason for getting in directors list.haha.so to mr koh's comment----->screw you la.you go battlefield let the nazi or pakistani or arab or bangala terrorists shoot y our balls off or something la.i hope hitler rises from his grave and shoot you. yea. hahahahahhaha back at you. lol.

2009-11-01T02:51:00.000-08:00

sibei sibei siaann.studying day and night like some fag.i also dont know why i study so much.and my Amath book is locked in my drawer but the keys are missing and i need it badly to recap and permutations and combinations and probability for biostatistics.coz all my precious o lvl notes are inside. i can imagine the period after i graduate from tp.sweet long holidays until NS.to make up for the 3 months i lost rotting in meridian jc while everyone was enjoying after o levls.knn.gotta plan an outing by then.i'm thinking of going taiwan.$ no prob to me.i got a sponsor.lol.

2009-10-30T07:14:00.001-07:00

my mum brought beef today much to my disdain.but she dint know i've given up eating beef and pork fro almost a year and a half ever since i saw how cows and pigs are killed. we bleed red and so do they.its too cruel. i'm eating more vegetables.its healthier.i think all of you should too.chicken and seafood isnt so bad coz the animal dies less painfully.but i'll work on it.more vegetable less meat. you jsut gotta go youtube or soemthing and i'm sure you can see how cows are killed.imgine chain saws cutting you in half while you're alive. its honestly sick and heartbreaking.i dont think the live of an animal is any Less important than than the live of a human.i still dont get why humans are superior beings just because we are smarter. well...less meat less cahnces of getting cancer.off to run.bye bye.

2009-10-27T04:08:00.000-07:00

no one wants to run with me.no gx no zl no wl. the ta e long rottin at home dono do wat.looks like i'm runnin alone....again.

2009-10-26T06:07:00.000-07:00

took my O's today.lol. betcha i screwed up.but i think my grades lie in the range of B3 to A1.made friends with this pasir ris crest gal.HAHAH. you know how? coz theres a piano there.good to pao za bor.play some jay chou tunes.lol. either way i'm not afraid of doing badly.i'm more afraid what people would say. so even if i do get an A1 i aint saying it out coz people would say i'm proud of something i cheated to get in the 2nd try.if i do badly'than all the more nth to say.if i do maintain my GPA its still more than enough to get me in electrical engineering.so basically this exam has ZERO significance to me.geddit.haha. back to beethoven virus.finally i can resume my show.maestro kang change to maestro wong renen better la.

2009-10-25T00:17:00.000-07:00

ok,...SORRY about that stupid virus guys. i did receive soemthing weird from my frined but i did not click the link. A 1000 apologies to those affected.haha.

2009-10-24T09:01:00.000-07:00

my lecturer was giving some boring lecture on triple integration and everyone fell asleep so he showed us some funny math videos.lol

2009-10-23T09:23:00.000-07:00

I chose all my electives.must say i'm proud of my choices. coz all my electives are biology free.its all purely physics and mathematics.The maths part is a bit tough with the troublesome laplace and Z transforms and vectors/complex numbers. but maths stuff is as good as a guaranteed A to me. screw biology subjects man.always sabo me get a B+.econs i'm barely coping. And i thought ceteris paribus was gone for good when i left MJC.boring.hahas.

2009-10-22T09:23:00.000-07:00

you know how things are in life.rise up and life it. anyway i'm kinda missing a running partner.end up running alone at night.1 go ns 1 go thai one play maple and the last fag who lives so near me only knwo how to watch his one piece anime. i also want watch right.lol.but excercise is important lei.later testeosterone levels fall might end up as some ah gua in my course.got malaysian ahgua singaporean ahgua cheena ahgua indian ahgua.talk about globalisation.whatever luh.gotta slp.night.

2009-10-21T02:07:00.000-07:00

my parents are going to jiuzhaigou china. and i may sacrifice the trip coz of studies.how nice to leave me alone.but i really hate celebrating christmas in singapore ever since i celebrated it in korea.no snow,no rain only the frigging hot idiotic sun. singapore suxs.patriotic people can scram off.

2009-10-18T03:05:00.000-07:00

lovely time table.every tues is a holiday. so i think i'll go for a run and then swim in tp pool every tues. oh yea...

2009-10-17T06:48:00.000-07:00

i'm a little depressed.but whats worse is i dont knwo what i'm depressed about. and if i really think about it i think i know.but its a topic too sensitive to be discussed about here.poly sec jc friends and cousins are reading my blog. its embarrasing adn i dont want to appear sad over something i joke about all the time. if people start being sensitive around it means i'm weak.thats bad luh.haha.well.have to type my reports again. cant wait to graduate from tp. i had a great tiem so far. jsut that meeting those 2 b#$ches was the greatest regret in my life.for oncei'm glad gotta go ns for 2 yrs coz if i do make it into nus i wont wanna run into them and is possible i'd like to erase their existance from my cerebral cortex. i'm very sure a few other people agree.i hope i don blow up at them befroe graduation. anyway i've tolerated them and their voice fro 2 yrs close.congrats to me.

2009-10-16T10:31:00.000-07:00

haiz. i like her lei. how? confess don't confess. of course don't la. i rather dig out my guts than say it.and just coz i checked her timetable does not make me a stalker dudes.lol. well.not the first time i like a girl anyway. but if i do confess thats gotta be a first.

2009-10-11T06:55:00.000-07:00

well...i met my long time childhood /girl-friend from raffels junior college now goign to campbridge or was it yale university. wtf.ivy league universities. was kinda awkward at first coz i felt so small beside someone as smart as her.i felt so inferior.like...dono la.i was even afraid the eng i speak is too lousy for her. i always thought my eng was kinda good. but i realize i suck when i read hers in pri 6. and thanks god she's still the xue hui i knew.haha.what to do.everyone in my pri sch days praised me for my eng. my head kinda swelled. and i did get A star for eng in psle only to fail my chinese. A* A A fail. but she's modest. and most impotantly likes piano. she's a piano queen la.lol. we chatted bout many funny things that happened alst time.how i bullied her till she cried. and how i barged in the toilet while she was bathing.and she lent me the korean drama beethiven virus. i knew that drama.coz taayeon sang the theme song 'can you hear me'. i even printed out the piano score sheet. and i thought i only wanted to learn the songs inside but it turned out the drama was really really good. the main actress Lee Ji-ah is beeautifullll. i'm still far off. but if i ever complete my engineering degree at NUS/NTU i'll work hard to get into an orchestra and pursue music full time. just liek that show. abck to my eng mugging.nights.

2009-10-08T21:32:00.000-07:00

sian lei. life is boring. i am stuck in tp 24 hrs 7 with a pain in the ass project.but those doing sip are more pitiful la.must travel so far.haha.

2009-10-05T09:21:00.001-07:00

i feel damn lousy now.coz i cant solve a math question.whenver i cant i feel stupid.honestly.and i get all irritated.this is the first tiem i took more then 2 hrs to crack my head.i have NEVER took more than an hour to solve any math question.at most its like 1.5 hrs.so i'm blogging to destress.friggin pissed.10 pages of calculations and the answer wont turn out. shiiitt you newton.stupid method.

2009-10-02T23:56:00.000-07:00

i ran into praka on my way home at 293.i kept staring at his beard/goatee cum moustache.he look hilarious.doesent fit the discipline master image.lol.

2009-10-02T07:57:00.000-07:00

went to church today.kena force by parents.miracle.i was half asleep in the sanctuary coz the lights were so dim and it was cold.andthe best thing is everyone at church treats me liek a vip.durign the holy communion the paster told my dad its good to see his whole family.lol.gotta slp and study later. slp study slp study slp proj slp proj slp piano slp maths.thats life i guess.

2009-10-02T04:00:00.001-07:00

yea man.my proj is goin so damn well.although its with gods help.i alone would have not been able to do sucha complicated project.hell is the nxt 2 weeks where i'll mug my english. i can literally smell my delicious gpa going up up up.

anyway aizens blardy cool.he pawns all.

2009-09-30T07:45:00.000-07:00

doing well for my project.i have a strong feeling i would hit above 3.7 gpa this sem.lol.back to mugging for my o level english....allllll over again.

2009-09-29T07:12:00.000-07:00

girls generation Jessica is really pretty here. maybe i should change from a seohyun fan to a jessica fan.nice dancing btw.and they can sing in chinese.thats cool.lol

2009-09-28T05:51:00.001-07:00

went to sim lim to get my project stuff. some stupid old man spat at me.yellow mucus.wtf.i seriously wanted to punch him.

2009-09-27T09:36:00.000-07:00

my mum's lashing at me right now coz i secretly took sleeping pills. got busted.maybe i should start listening to craig david's insomnia to get to slp instead.

2009-09-25T06:06:00.000-07:00

i just read bleach and i think anyone who does will agree with me coz I think Aizen is a reeeeaaall muddaf#$%^$.

2009-09-23T23:55:00.000-07:00

things are a bit complicated.my soul's prostrated and shagged out. the dawn knows no reprieve but i need more time to study my english and cope with the damn project. if only time stood still...

2009-09-23T09:37:00.001-07:00

i'm bored to i'm blogging to kill time.i know this sounds weird coming form someone whose computer programming skills are just average but i have a new dream. i wanna become a hacker. anyway good hackers earn big bucks if they use their skills for good.but dont underestimate me.i can turn my maths from F9 in sec 2 to A1 straight ok.I'm sure i can improve my programming skills if i wanted to.
come to think if it my math was really bad in sec 1 and 2. i got 19/100 for mid year la.and gx still say he sure lower than me.that fag got 50+.lol.Oh...i remember i got 23/100 for chinese.better than maths.i dont even remember why i started working hard but i'm glad god choose the right path for me. like i said...i dont really have strong faith but if i had to choose a god its definitely christ. and from what i've seen religion is not somethign to be taken too seriously. look at the 2 dumb guys who think they're mediums or demon slayers and look at those stupid terrorists in the name of god or whatever bomb people into bits. imagine how many pretty girls would have died.dammit. its a big sin to kill pretty girls. hahaha.slping soon.night.

2009-09-22T06:40:00.000-07:00

i'm in a dilemma now.because my parents have decided to save up and go on another big trip just before i enter NS. And by popular demand coz of my siblings,they still want korea.or i could fight for japan.and i've been to korea before too. so why do i wanna go korea again....coz i wanna catch girls generation concert that coincides with the planned trip. guess it will be autumn/winter again when i go. haiz....gto any trips that have like 4 days korea 3 days japan?hahahaz.

2009-09-20T09:52:00.000-07:00

give up.i dono how to use fb.i received the invite form my friends but when i go to the confirm page the person disappered.i take a quiz and the resutls dont come out. and yea..i dono how to add friends also la.cant even find any page that allows me to do that.=.=.whatever.let it rot.

anyway damn pissed with my aunt.keeps boastign about her daughter. want her to take O lvls in sec 1 and A lvls by sec 4. and another aunt ...she accused me of being an ah beng jsut cause i styled my hair.and she was rambling on about me going poly thats why end up as ah beng.
oh ..and i pray cherrie dosent end up jumping off the building becuase of her crazy mum. i mean shes the top student of poi ching pri.and shes a beauty and all man lol.but hey...sec 1 olvls?

thats bullmuddashit. Fuck you.

bitch.

2009-09-18T09:53:00.000-07:00

i'd love to go korea once more coz its really fun. and i think i got potential for photography.took this picture back in korea.

And this was the object of laughter fro much of the trip.coz i literally fell into this waterfall. it like freezing cold.i had to swim back to shore.si bei sia suay and the tour guide said i was the first guy to fall in,in her 12 years of job..argh.but hey.if it were summer it would have been great.too bad it was winter.and the water on me froze so hard i walked liek a robot.hahaha. oh well.nice pictures huh.

2009-09-16T07:59:00.000-07:00

stupid proj suck balls.i should have chose to take the science category instead of the engineering category. argh shit....shit.shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit siht stih. no really. i somehow see my A grade growing really nice wings.

2009-09-14T09:34:00.000-07:00

i dono why everytime i see those 2 girls my blood will explode sia.its the way they talk.the way they act cute when they're not.sia la.its like when i see them i wanna stick hot needles in my eyes.and she thinks she look liek one of the snsd members when she was young.sorry girl.you don cut it.i mean her eye like typical korena small eyes lei pls.even my eyes are larger than yours.you know....like this --->O^O .yup.these are yours ----> oo. hahaha.anyway girls generation are much prettier than you la ccb.know your place.dont ask me why i dislike them la.long story.wonder why i dont say it in their face.coz i nice guy dowan trouble lei.graduating in 1 more sem might as well tahan their presence for awhile more.to top it off if i offend them equal to offend all the other girls.lol.anyway my mum jsut deleted my 5 hrs long worth of mp report accidentally...sad sia.sia la mdm soh.you really leave us to die.kampua suay lei.tio this project.gimme maths project i sure get z.

damn...seriously dude...where are the hot needles i prepared?

2009-09-12T23:14:00.000-07:00

i seriously think pretty girls are pretty stupid academically.lol.they must think that with their looks they can get a rich guy. ....but its true la.

2009-09-10T07:10:00.000-07:00

shit...think i tio warning letter.that mr kwok standing behind me looking at us watcing girls generation videos.and we did not even know that he was behind?so if we get warning letters you knwo who it is. no wonder the fortune teller told me i would be killed by girls generation one day. nono.more like killed by lust one day.

nah.juz kiddin.i very pure one.and i dont believe in fortune tellers either.o0.good luck to zl and gx.one go army one fly to thailand for 5 months.there goes my 2 favourite gay partners.guess i still got kl and a few other guys to gay with. maybe i should start talking to gracie more often.hehheh.

i'd give the world to play a piano duet with seohyun.oh.i wnt taeyeon and yuri and yoona and jessica and tiffany and and and..whatever.=.=.bored la.project flung so thats why i'm blogging to kill time.you know ciak pa bo sai pang.lol.

2009-09-08T08:40:00.001-07:00

i believe in trying your best.and that means 101%.and as for my project.my best is evidently not enough.so i think i'll give up and my Z/A and settle for a b+.thats the very least i deserve.my GPA can take the blow. after semester 3.1,SEmester 3.2 is all theory exams again.it should be a breeze by then coz getting A's for theory papers are chicken.i dont even need to study coz its all calculations stuff built upon strong math foundation.exams are surely easier to score than projects.coz exams are just theory theory theory.heh heh.but really...this project is sucking the life out of me.i need a retreat.like turning on my Air con with some romantic lighting and candles and soft music and going off to bed.....lol

2009-09-06T01:06:00.000-07:00

i just made a FB account.and i give up.coz i dont evne know all the fucntions.i seriously cant sit my ass more than 5 mins on the chair to learn anything other than piano and maths.so forget it.think i'll just let tat damn account rot la.

2009-08-31T10:28:00.001-07:00

ya...dont hang your dirty linen in public.so i took down that post.anyway i wrote that in anger. everyone keeps asking me in class to make facebook. they say its fun bla bla bla...and they say they hunted my FB online for an hour.of coz cant find la.i dont even have one you all assume.lol.so firstly and most importantly i'm too friggin lazy to make it.2ndly...i got NO pictures to upload.coz i HATE taking photos and i DONT have any photos either.unless its the ones from korea or australia.you spend 15k for such trips of coz must take photos so those are extenuating circumstances. malaysia no pt la.who never see msia b4.jiuzhaigou china not confirmed.maybe if my parents do go i may consider making fb.lol. so you see...i have good reasons not to make face book.Fb without photos is as good as meat without salt.who wants to see your acct right? BUT maybe i may make one you know...for snsd's sake. coz that quiz on which "snsd girl is your favourite" looks...tempting.heha!so gimme some time k.but i still seriously think its BORING.i mean.yar.

peace mudaa@#$%^&. juz kiddin.^^

2009-08-29T09:19:00.000-07:00

i'm so in love with ff dissidia main song. cant seem to find the original piece.only the transcribed one. though a lot easier i'd prefer to play the unedited version from nobuo umetsu.

2009-08-27T08:45:00.000-07:00

i feel as if i just screwed my oral exams today.damn it.dont ask me why i feel that way.i just feel it.
if i get 10 for reading 9 for picture and maybe 12 for conversation, it about 31/40 marks. And that probably the best i could get. i swear it just feels like yesterday when i took oral in sec 4. the exact same feeling.somehow all the memories came gushing back in my head....kinda miss the times in sec school.those were really ,truly ,unequivocally the best years of my life.lol.

cabbed down to prcs sec...the uncle was realyl nice when he knew i was sitting fro my O levels.kept chatting with me.and charged me 2 bucks for the trip.wth.lol.So i was rotting in pasir ris crest sec for an hour. good thing i had my 30 gig of girls generation high def.videos in my lap top to keep me entertained.yea...and i haven even finished watching them all.no time lei.actually more than 30 gig.i think now got at least close to 36 gig.HAHA.hard core fan.did i mention snsd seohyun and yuri plays the piano.and yuri can play the violin.WTF.and they speak so fluent english.girls who speak good English makes me respect them.aw...love them.i was pointing to my sis the girls i like.and by the end of the music video she asked me if there was any girl i did not point at. and i realized i pointed at all 9 girls.HAHAH.

And prcs sec had this really beautiful semi grand piano but some freaking old man was playing it.and i swear it SUCKS.He CANT play the piano but he thinks he can play it really well.you know..like some old wayang song played in piano.my ears were on the verge of explosion.for 1.5 hrs i waited there,he played for an hour.wth.even i cant stick my ass on the piano fro an hour.and he keep repeating the same damn song.good thing the rain was heavy and it kinda did some damage control.

i want a piano duet with seohyun man. she looks beautiful even with little makeup and even more when she plays that grand piano.lol